After 13 years of marriage and 3 kids, the last thing I ever expected to be doing at this point in my life is having an affair, and yet here I am. For 13 years I have been busy being someone’s wife and mother, and now I am also someone’s girlfriend, mistress, lover. I never set out to deceive my husband. It was never my intention to possibly risk my marriage and my family life for someone I’d just met. It started out innocent enough, just a work acquaintance that turned into a friendship quicker than I ever planned or expected, next it became a minor flirtation, and suddenly it was more. I cannot get this person off my mind. He consumes my every thought. He is nothing like my type, but I think that I am in love.
Before you judge me, before you criticize me, you should know that this is completely out of character for me. I have spent the grand majority of my adult life being straight laced but now those days are gone and I don’t know if I can go back to being my former self. I don’t know if I even want to go back to being my former self.
I know that I am treading on dangerous ground. Every day I press my luck. I think that I am safe for now but I don’t know how much longer before one of us slips and we get caught. My whole world will change and I will not be able to undo the damage. I cannot stop. I don’t want to stop. I should be sorry, but I’m not. I am in love.